psomaster437

nothing has gone my way period for the past 2 fucking days. i know sometimes things just go wrong but serously why all this shit so suddenly?

i know one thing wasnt my fault but that doesnt mean it didnt effect me.

basicly my back is sore as fuck. my left shoulder blade specificaly. and my lower back is killing me again and this time it wasnt cus i sat funny. this time its cus my dad made me carry huge bags of rocks for a french drain we are having to put in so our crawlspace stops flooding. and yes im lifting with my knees not my back. painkillers help but they only do so much when a major muscle is sore from use.

my left eye is a bit blurry from what my sister did to me. basicly i grabbed her suddenly using my left arm and tried to pick her up, knew she was about to swing her head back at me so i ducked my head down, guess where i got hit? right behind the ear right above the muscles for your neck run. shes fine but i was so fucking made i almost decked her. it took alot to not just swing cus i was already poised to do it. i instead yelling that freaking hurt since i cant curse in this house, and then slammed the door with all i had and let my parents deal with her. no idea what they did.

and now im currently sitting here waiting to talk with kayla and hoping shes not mad at me. i doubt she is but my anxiety wont letme think otherwise easily.

so yeah, i fucking hate my life right now and nothing is going good period. best thing today was finding out a game comes out in a few weeks, and thats sad.

now to go and try to do something so i dont sit here and think about it all.